Got to keep up the impression of happiness. Working well so far. Genuinly AM happy though so it's not very hard. My real challenge will come when I have coffee with my mentor (I tell her everything). I MUST NOT tell her about this relapse. If I tell someone I will fail and not loose any weight.
I've been having a not so fun reminder of what binge/purge session are like. Only happened once. Yesterday was a major control day. I decided that there was no way I was going to loose control. And I didn't.
If I loose 5 more lbs the REAL game starts. This is just the adverts to the real film. I've lost the 5lbs I've lost so far many times. If I loose 5 more then I start getting serious.
On a brighter note I have a lovely week ahead, going shopping today, seeing friends throughout the week, only working on thursday, saturday and sunday which is a nice change from the 7-day weeks I've been working.
Does anyone know how to avoid getting a stitch when running?
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Keep breathing. Controlled. I breathe in for four steps and out for four when I'm running. It works most of the time. I also like going first thing in the morning as there's less going on inside my body to give me a stitch.
I told my mentor everything, now I'm scared to see her again which is just silly :S
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I'm glad to hear you are happier even if you had to force it to start with. Can't help you with the running, as I am horribly lazy but good luck. Have a great week, it sounds like you have a good one coming up :)
*hugs*
Sarah
I'm having trouble deciphering your tone in this post-- is another 5lbs good in your view? Or bad?
I know you know this, but I just want to remind you that eating disorders just take and take never give anything back. You deserve so much better in life than to live as a slave to the scale or the mirror. You don't need an eating disorder to make you exceptional-- you are already exceptional.
Wishing you well,
NOS
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