BLAH. That's the only way to describe how I feel. Because I have no idea how I feel. I can't trust my emotions because they change so rapidly...one minute I'm having the time of my life, the next I feel like punching a wall....the next I'm huddled in a ball crying. EMOTIONS CAN YOU PLEASE.STAY.STILL. It's driving me nutty.
The food issue is so so so so so confusing. I don't know how to eat. I don't know what to eat. So I eat everything.I know I shouldn't eat 5 chocolate bars in a row...but I can't control myself. How pathetic is that!!!! How do I stop? MODERATION, if anyone has any for sale, please let me know. Thankyou!
Recovery is tough shit. It's not what I expected. I thought I would struggle to eat, but I'm getting the exact opposite, and I know it's because my body is learning to trust me again, but it doesn't feel like that, for the past 3 weeks I have just eaten.
My mentor still hasn't talked to me. I'm confused, but getting over it. Maybe I'm meant to go this alone. If I didn't have this blog and all your support I don't think I would still be going, and for that I am eternally grateful, you guys are saving me.
Massive love, and sorry more another incoherent ramble.
Your pal, Battle xx