Sunday, 28 February 2010

Plan time (sung like hammer time)

Thank you for the advice on recovery! So I can't see any proffesionals because no one knows I relapsed, and I can't get to counselling etc without my parents knowing, so I'm going it alone, well not completely alone, I have a mentor at church who I will meet up with regularly and will help keep me on track.

My normal problem with recovery is that I get stuck in a binge all the time....feel really miserable....go back to ED. So I will start from the root of the cycle, the binge. I am going to keep a food plan/diary, so I can keep track of myself. I am going to be doing a lot of research into why ED. and I have a book about Cognitive behavioural therapy that I will read. How does that sound?

So my meal plan for today(If any one sees any problems with the meal plan please tell me!)

Breakfast: porridge with chopped up banana
mid morning snack: satsuma
Lunch: pork and orange caserole
dinner: tuna and mayonnaise toastie with a satsuma and a chocolate bar.

What do you think? I'm scared....but kinda excited!

Also I am changing the name of this blog to up the rabbit hole.


mariposai said...

When I first tried to recover, I ended up entering the deadly binge-purge cycle, and the only way to stop it is to:

a) Get to a healthy weight
b) Eat enough and regularly

Your body will stop wanting to binge once you start to treat it right. You have to earn its trust again otherwise it will screw around with you.

You can make it up the rabbit hole.

Sarah x

Anonymous said...

Well...would you be able to add any more snacks? (I know, know, know it sucks and is HARD).

Something like:

At least thats what my nutritionist recommends.

Sairs said...

The only thing I would add would be a snack between lunch and dinner. It's hard I know but I've been trying to eat more over the last few days and I've found that I'm not getting hungry now between meals. I have to make sure I have a bigger lunch and a good snack for morning and afternoon. It's working so well for me. I usually have a fun size mini choc bar at lunch and after dinner, then I don't crave chocolate and it's such a small amount that it doesn't pack on the weight, which is what I was worried about. You are doing so well. I am so proud of you! Thank you too for all your lovely comments. I'm also keeping a food diary that has NO calories or counting in it, but it's mainly for my dietitian. If you think that would be triggering, don't do it, just know what you're eating and that you're getting enough. One thing I did find that when I started eating again, that I started to get hungry and I had to have something small to get me through that. I had dried fruit for those times.

sunshine said...

Aww, good on you for taking this scary step hun :) I think it's already bern mentioned but if you could work towards adding two more snacks in that be really good - one in the afternoon and one after dinner. Stay strong *hugs* xx

Pip said...

NO scary binge purge cycle for you!

Stick Thin said...

I think this is a wonderful idea. If you have someone who will support you in a positive way hold to them! Stay positive. I love the color of your blog :)