Monday, 18 April 2011

Life update time!

Eating wise my life is very up and down. Yesterday I dropped two pounds, today I overate. The urge to purge gets greater and greater. I want so bad to loose weight. I'm doing 4 exercise classes a week, my friends say I've toned up, but I just see a big flabby mess. I weigh too much. 


On more positive news (cause sometimes pity parties aren't fun) I am still enjoying my job, I got a much better job review than I thought I would, and I'm finally making some real friends there. 

Another positive: I have just discovered the amazing world of fake tan. I brought an £8 bottle and I love it. Normally I am EXTREMELY  pale so it's lovely to have a glow. Plus I've just brought some great new makeup. I'm starting to look a little fake though... fake tan, fake eyelashes, lots of make up. I'm still considering a boob job and botox. 

Sorry I've been so distant on your blogs!

4 comments:

Zena said...

Thinking of you, knowing how tough getting rid of the Ed thoughts are, you will make it, keep plugging, your strong, I know this, you will be in my prayers.

Much love

Tara

Lisa said...

I wish ED would go to hell. I'm with Tara, the weight stuff is such a messy sticky peice of shit. Stay strong, you can do this. I'm glad things seem to be a bit happier :)

xoxo
-Lisa

i love bows:) said...

lots of love xxxx

be(e)Free said...

hey!
I found your blog yesterday and read it all. You really did some progress!
I was never diagnosed with an eating disorder but I know my relation with food isn't normal. I overeat several times, I'm obsessed wiht calories, I do sports to burn calories (and not just because I enjoy them). Sometimes I throw up if i've "eaten too much". There are also some periods where I starve...

Reading your blog helped me a lot because it's so different from the others I read previously, you know?

Thanks for your help, keep writing!

(ps- i'm portugese and that's why my english is not so good)