This is a bit of an indulgent post - but I feel like it's my fault that I've relapsed...what am I saying?! It is my fault!! I actively let myself fall back to this. This week I've purged 4 times. Restricted obsessively. Not happy with this. That fear and feeling of helplessness when coming up to dinner has returned. But as strange as it sounds, I feel like my ED behaviours are helping me cope with exam stress. Damn, damn, triple damn.
On good news, hear is how Friday with the boy went. We met at the park down my road, and I wanted to buy a magazine so we went to the shop and I brought Elle. Because England has suddenly decided it's Summer we went back and sat in the park. And talked. For an hour. Really nice, really relaxed. There were no awkward moments, it was really lovely being able to hang out with him and not worry about him thinking I was leading him on. Thanks for the faaaabulous advice :)
Okay, my question a while ago was 'what would you do with a million pounds'. I have to stay, the first thing I would do is buy a pair of Christain Louboutains and a Chanel bag. And then I would save the rest.
Second question, who would I be for a day? I would be a ballerina. I admire ballerina's strength, stamina and grace, I would love to see what it's like to be that talented.
Okay, new questions for you:
1. One magic power, what do you chose?
2. Three eyes or two bums, what do you chose?
I love doing these types of questions, and I love hearing your answers :)