Monday, 21 June 2010

Little Miss Positivity.

Wow. 2 days, no binges, normal in 3 meals a day and a snack. Wow. I don't know where this has come from! No idea! It just...happened. I woke up a few days ago, planning to skip breakfast and just eat lunch, but my brain wouldn't let me, or was it my body that wouldn't let me? Either way, I ate my ready brek like a good girl. And then stopped when I was full...then ate normal lunch...and then a normal dinner. Wow. Well this came as a shock to me! Something in my brain just...switched...I don't even WANT to binge and the want to restrict has lessened quite a lot! I'm just trying really hard to stay in the present, which I do by catching myself thinking of the next meal, and thinking "but what do you feel NOW? do you feel hungry or full? Do you need food to fuel you at the moment?"

This is a short post, just wanted to recognise how I feel.

Now question time..
I asked you if you HAD to be in one of these films which would you chose, Final Destination or Saw. And most said Final Destination because it was less gruesome. Totalllyyy agree. I don't actually like these types of films as I hate seeing people in pain, but at halloween my friends all watch scary films so I join in. I too would chose Final Destination, it seems less mad as it sounds I would rather not have to make the decision whether to fight and live or die (as in Saw), I would rather just die quickly :) This all sounds a bit....morbid, yes?

New questions:

1. From the Harry Potter books, which character do you identify with most?


Eating Alone said...

Neville Longbottom, well I'm not big on plants but him trying to do the right thing, and being a bit clumsy.

I'm very glad you ate right. Keep up the good work.

mariposai said...

You go girl! That is awesomely inspiring work :-)

As for Harry Potter, I reckon I'd need to read all the books again to answer your question accurately...I'm well overdue a date with a Harry Potter book, it's been over a year since I read them!

Well done again!

Sarah x

Anonymous said...

Im happy you are ating normally, it's good :)

Luna because she's in her own little world :)

Anonymous said...

I'm proud, and happy for you!
I have never read the Harry Potter books! :/
I gave you an award on my blog.
Have a lovely week.


Anonymous said...

I know what you mean about the muder thing, I understand that it's not good and want recovery, I really do, but not yet.
I'm ready to feign ignorance a little bit longer.
You're comment wasn't patronising lovely.

Sairs said...

good for you with your eating. It might be that with you eating normally, your body doesn't want to binge because it hasn't been restricted. I don't know, but I think when it feels normal, it lets you feel normal too. It's just those pesky ED thoughts that get in the way of this.

As for Harry Potter, I didn't finish them, reason being when I was reading "Order of the Pheonix" I found the detention scene where he was being hurt when he wrote, triggering for my SI, weird I know but I couldn't continue reading them at that point. I would like to go back to them now that though, that I'm not so triggered by SI anymore.


NabilaHazirah said...

that's good news!

as for harry potter,
i'd say ron or luna :) said...

Way to go! Keep on trucking with the structured eating. Even if you slip and binge or skip a meal... just do the next right thing and eat the next meal - normal sized meal.

i love bows:) said...

basically, elbelles, you are totally brilliant!

im so chuffed for you, and proud of you right now.

lots of love

ps-Luna.or hagrid. or i cant remeber her name-katie o think, who went out with either friend or george...cos i always fancy redheads so maybe that makse me hermione with ron lol xxx

Anonymous said...

Hey sweetie,
Answering your question~ I only work during the week, and school is out. So, I have my weekends free to the ones I love, and pictures! :)
All my love. I hope you are okay.


i love bows:) said...

long time no speak hahahahahahaha not really i just felt like leaving you a silly comment!!
aLSO HAVE YOU SEEN THE NEW CHANEL CAROUSEL NECKLACE-i dont know why i did that in caps, silly keyboard, but it is caps worthy hahah cos its LUSH!!lol
im making a vogue collage:)cos im lame like that!