Thursday, 27 May 2010

What does the future hold for you?

Today was my 2nd to last day at school. I'm FREAKING OUT. I am far to immature to leave school. I honestly still feel like I'm 13, not 17. I can't deal with leaving school!! Where did it all go? Aren't these meant to be 'the best days of your life'? Have I wasted them? Does it go downhill from here? As you might be able to tell, I'm having a mid (okay, quarter) life crisis!

Today was uniform day which was pretty fun. Felt VERY strange to get back into uniform. I enjoyed it :)

Tomorrow is my final day - change if plan from hippy idea. Me and my closest 9 friends are all coming as warriors. We all have army hats and bullet belts, we got matching shorts and are going to paint ourselves green/brown. I'm so excited! In the evening it's the bar crawl - we go to about 5 bars/clubs and have to complete dares (get behind the bar....lick a through a fountain...down a pint.) I have set myself some challenges of my own. I have decided not to drink (shock horror!) I really want to see if I'm able to have fun without the alcohol aid (plus I'm working at 10 the next morning). I no there are going to be a lot of very overly drunk (read paralytic) people, so I think I will look after them, because I've been there and I know how much it sucks!

I wanted to do something special for my girls, so I made a card for each of them. On the front is a picture of me and the person and there name written in pretty writing. On the other side I have written them things which I have wanted to tell them, about how special and fabulous they are, and how grateful for them I am etc. I'm so excited to give them out tomorrow!!

As you can tell all this business hasn't left a lot of time for me to think about food obsessively. I have been purging an awful lot but I was totally expecting this, with all the stress.

Love you all!


Sairs said...

how exciting, last day! I will always remember my last day of school too but I was still 16 because my 17th birthday was the day after I left school. I does feel weird but you will also have a great day tomorow, so focus on that. The cards sound lovely. I hope you have a great day and a lovely time afterwards!

Anonymous said...

i hope you have a lovely last day! those cards sound awesome, by the sound of them, your friends will love them!

mariposai said...

Awww bless you! Seems like ages since I left school now, but you have the rest of your life ahead of you and it's a very exciting time indeed. How sweet of you to make cards for your friends, and I'm loving the warrior's a good analogy for recovery too - the notion of you bravely fighting off the evil monster :-)

Love the pretty pics of your lovely self...

Sarah x

i love bows:) said...

your a total cutey:)
i remember leaving school:) was weird i got all emotional lol,i left my school at 15, then we went back for gcse's-it didnt have a 6th form, so i went to a college 6th form centre which was totally fab! i was soo upset when i left there, which is where you are at now i guess!

els you are so pretty:)
ha i remever ast day at 6th before we did exams-i FINALLY kissed this boy i soent 2 years fancying, lol did you everr see dawsons creek-we were the original dawson and joey!haha


Anonymous said...

I hope your last day is as wonderful as you imagined.
I wore uniforms all through high school. I loved it.
You are so beautiful.

LOVE! said...

It is so obvious you care so much about your friends. your friends are lucky to have you!

bella joan said...

ahhh i hope you have fun on your last day of school! that's so exciting!! your costume sounds amazing :D and i hope you have fun on your bar crawl, and well done on deciding not to drink, i stopped drinking a few months ago and i've found that i definitely have more fun because i remember all the stupid things everyone else does and can torment them the next day!! xo

Anonymous said...

Wow, last day of school That's always exciting, yet overwhelming at the same time, as you're unsure about what the future holds. Keep up hope though, that it'll only get better. I graduated high school one and a half years ago, so not too long ago. Congrats on getting through school.
The cards for your friends sound lovely :)
Take care,
Cassie x