As I mentioned yesterday night I went out with my friends. It was so lovely to be out with them and actually I didn't feel shy or fat at all. It really put me back in a good mood. Sometimes friends bring you out of that black mood.
I woke up today feeling productive I have been to the gym this morning, booked my driving theory test, and sorted out a new phone. I have also eaten well so far today. I had wheetabix for breakfast then for lunch I made an omelette (I NEVER cook so I was quite proud of my not exactly perfect looking meal. It was tasty :) I am going out for a meal with my old work friends today and I am giving myself permission to eat what I want.
Now another issue I would like to address, a comment I received on my last post. "You should delete this blog. I know it's a sanctuary but it's probably making you care more about this stuff. I deleted my blog recently and my life has been so different." Well this comment got me a little annoyed. First off, don't tell me what I 'should' do. Also I find that writing what I eat here actually helps me feel better about it. For example yesterday after writing what I ate I looked at the list and realised it wasn't so awful. Also this blog is the place where I can be honest and I truly enjoy having this blog.
ps. You've all been so awesome recently and truly supportive thank you!