Friday, 2 April 2010
Happy Birthday sister.
My beautiful sister is 14 today, we've had a great day, we went to 'Go Ape' which is a high wire assault course (giant assault course high in the trees). I went about 3 years ago and was quite scared of heights, but today I totally embraced it and had an amazing time! It made me feel like I could do anything if I want to.
These last few days I have been wanting to restrict the whole time. I didn't eat breakfast yesterday went to the gym instead, had a little soup for lunch and a spag bol for dinner, weighed myself this morning, lost 1lb. Today I've been wanting to restrict but haven't been able to since it's J's birthday, so had a croissant for breakfast, a hot dog for lunch and a piece of cake for the sister's birthday. I think this restricting business is to do with seeing all my friends getting thinner while I'm putting on weight, I find it so uncomfortable.
My Grandad's birthday is tomorrow. I don't think he knows, he was in a car accident 5 years ago and doesn't remember much and is confused a lot of the time. I don't know how to reach out to him, he's not had a good life. He used to love to get out of the house and go cycling, walking, jogging, and now he can barely walk. He was in the army and now he can't read. It's not fair.