10 minutes ago I ate about half a bottle of peanut butter. And a banana. 3 buscuits. And a chocolate bar. For breakfast I had a mars bar.
This can't continue.
I'm so angry.
I have NO self control.
How have I let myself get so huge?? I'm going on freakin' holiday with all my tiny friends. No way I can survive that without slimming.
So this is it.
I know you'll say it's ED speaking up.
But it's not, it's common sense.
It's my eyes. I can SEE how fat I've gotten.
My mum tells me how big I've gotten.
My friends give me awkward looks when I eat.
I hate this. This tip toeing around me.
I need to get down.
But I don't know if I even can any more.
My self control has GONE.
I just eat.
I don't know how I'm going to restrict.