Tuesday, 21 September 2010

Triggered by...a dream?!

In my time I have been triggered by many things: a super skinny model, an article about weight loss, a comment from my friend, a friend loosing weight. But never have I been triggered by a dream. I dreamt that I was talking to my friend who has recently lost a lot of weight, and she was telling me about how she did it and how much happier she was and how much she weighs. I woke up feeling super panicky and instantly planned my food intake for the day:  30g ready brek (unfortunately my dog ate most of it, so I reckon I had half of that), I'm going to have a small can of tuna for lunch (I know that sounds gross but I LOVE TUNA) and what ever my family has for dinner, gym in the evening.
Another recent trigger was my mum saying "Are you okay? You seem to be eating a lot at the moment?" Mum, I am trying to recover from an eating disorder, please DO NOT ever say things like this. I didn't think I was over eating, but after this comment I am wanting to seriously cut down.
Today I booked my first counselling session with a new service, my first appointment is Tuesday 5th of October. I'm freaking out about it, but I think it will be good. To be honest my opinion of counselling went down because of my last pathetic counsellor, who was basically shit haha.

1. Have you ever been triggered by a dream?


Anonymous said...

I've never been trigged by a dream, I always get triggered by gaining weight. I'm so happy for you booking a counseling session with a new place, it's such a positive step in the right direction and has given me hope with my own potential recovery. Good luck doll, love xxxx p.s you can join me in my diet-coke-calorie-free disaster hehehe :) xxx

Anonymous said...

ugh i had the worst dream last night :(

moms can be so clueless sometimes

Dana xo

Anonymous said...

Oh. My. Goodness. I can't believe your mom said that. That ranks up there on the top five things never to say to someone with/recovering from an eating disorder. I'm sorry.

I'm glad you are getting counseling. I hope it's helpful.

I've never been triggered by a dream because I never remember them. Which I guess is a good thing (no nightmares) and a bad thing (no cool dreams).

Wishing you well,

Anonymous said...

I hope counseling went well. I'm sorry your about mom's words. I hate when my mom tells me things related to food.
I'm always triggered by my dreams. One time, I had a dream that I made a famous coffee table photobook. Since then, I have been taking photos. :)


Miriam said...

Yes I have been triggered by a dream!!! It was awful. I was walking around with a friend of mine who was anorexic and she had on skinny jeans that were baggy on her, and everyone kept saying to me, "Hey, if you've been trying to lose weight, it HASN'T been working." And I woke up and my day was a mess. Mannnnnn. Ugh. I'm feeling you on this one.

I hope your new therapy goes well! Good luck to you love :)

Anonymous said...

I was triggered by a friends stuffed Eeyore toy a few days ago. It looked at me in a way that told me how shit a person it thought I am.

tracy said...

Yes, i too, hope counseling went well. As i posted before, my first try was hell...i just wish i had know better to get out before i had!
Be well,

PS and had known to find an MD, cause i desperately needed meds...i am not saying you do, please don't take that wrong...i was truly looney...ha, still am! :)