Thursday, 3 February 2011

Work stress, food stress, gap year stress.

My work is treating me like crap. They are saying I can't have a holiday off when they said I could 2 months ago. They said I was failing probation because I took a day off a month ago. They say I don't seem like I want to be there, when I'm trying REALLY hard. Whatever.

Food stress: I am just confused with food intake at the moment. I don't know what's too much, I don't know what's not enough. That horrible "I've eaten too much" guilt is really strong at the moment, even when I logically don't think I've eaten too much. I first got diagnosable bulimia 2 years ago, and I'm SICK of thinking of this every day. I'm SICK of thinking about food, calories, exercise and weight every. Frickin. Day.

Gap year stress: I have 8 months left and I've done nothing. I so want to go somewhere, but I have no friends that I can travel with. I found an amazing oppertunity which is a 21 day tour of America but it's £1300, not including flights or spending money. Too expensive.

Stress.

2 comments:

helen said...

i know it is probably not a good time to be looking for a job but could you possibly find a better job where they actually appreciate you.

for everything else, take things one thing at a time. get plenty of sleep, things seem better after a good nights sleep.

but everything is so much easier said than done.

i hope things get better for you.

The Woollen Typist said...

For all the collective frustrations, talking helps.

As for work...maybe looking for another job? I know it's difficult though.

xx:)