I know I said in my last post a few months ago that I was saying goodbye to this blog but I just can't stay away! I've been reading a lot of your blogs and thinking of my blogger friends. So, how has my life been going? Let's categorise! Fun fun fun!
My eating has been, well, very straight forward! I know I'm eating enough (if not a little too unhealthy). I weigh myself most days just to check I'm stable. I still enjoy jogging but the last few weeks I've had a break as I've had family over and been away. But now I'm back I feel very anxious to increase my exercise. I have also been having ED thoughts in the last week about cutting down. Luckily, I KNOW that I can't go back there. This doesn't mean I won't relapse at some point in my future (I go to uni in a month and feel this will be a triggering time) but I know overall, I will never get back to the point I was. This food journey has been 3 years, I'm so ready to move on.
I've taken some great steps forward in healing old wounds, especially about the sexual abuse episodes I went through. About 3 weeks ago I had my final meet up with my mentor totally opened up. I told her things I never thought I would let out. Those secrets we put in a box lock up and know if we told anyone the world would explode (FYI, it didn't). Occasional episodes of insomnia but nothing major, and nothing I can't handle.
I'm really resisting those eating disordered thoughts at the moment. I would love to be 10lbs less, but in the long run if I did loose those 10lbs I wouldn't be any happier.
I won't be posting a lot just whenever I feel like getting thoughts out. Hope you're all well!