Ello ello.

Last night I stayed up til one reading my old posts. I was a right little drama queen! Made me laugh how one day I'd think my world was ending and the next I'm a bundle of joy. I'm very pleased that I'm more stable than that now. My mood stays relatively constant. 

Food wise I don't really think about it anymore. I just eat normally! I never thought I'd get to Where I am now, just normal eating patterns. It came with time, and a realisation that, because of how far I'd come, my relapses last maybe an hour, a day at most, and because of this I lost the fear of relapsing. I know if I get ED thoughts they will go away. This just took perseverance - literally just sticking through everything and eventually things even out. 

Mostly I just wanted to say a big thankyou. Reading through comments I realise what a wonderful support so many on here were for me- Vicky, Sairs and Andy to name a few. 

With love 

X

Rediscovered blog

To be honest I thought I'd deleted this blog! Put 'battleinmind' into Google to see what remnants were left and found...my whole flipping blog was.

Anyway it's lovely to see some people I used to really follow are still blogging, I still think of you guys a lot, wondering how you're doing.

I'm doing...well. Somehow, I genuinely don't know how, my eating disorder is becoming a thing of the past. That's not to say somedays I don't want to just eat raisins, but I don't act on impulses anymore. My breakthrough has been finding that I love exercise, it helps me see myself how I am, makes eating in moderation easier and just brings a lot of joy. Also realising I am worth a lot more Han I ever thought I was...my appearance is not what makes me me.

I have 8 months left of my nursing degree and I have a giant pile of work to do but it'll be fiiiiinnneeee.

Anyway, I hope you're all well. Love and hugs xx